Thursday, July 24, 2008

Happy ?@!$'n Birthday

So, I'm 31 today...don't know quite what to say that. It's not that I feel old, far from it. It's just that I thought I'd have accomplished so much more by now.

Been having a pretty rough go of it since April. I'd rather not get into the details but let's just say, “Mistakes were made.” I guess I can take comfort in Kevin Spacey’s line from American Beauty,
“It's never too late to get it back.”

So, that's what I'm going to try to do. Be brutally honest with myself and commit to living a better life. Go after what I really want and stop feeling so guilty about not being a “success” – whatever the hell that is.


suzanne said...

A very, very belated happy birthday wish. I hope things are going better.

Anonymous said...

We have to watch how we measure success. You may have evolved internally, spiritually, physically, and in other ways that don't rank on some other scale. We have to trust our process...sometimes it's not superficial but internal and authentic and does not show up in a superficial way. Others may feel and sense integrity in a person, whether or not they would be considered successful in an external way. Would an artist's measure be different than a skier's? Would a compassionate and sensitive human being's measure of his humanity be the same as a self-serving egomaniac who was materialistic and driven by the need to succeed?

raena said...

Oh yes, very similar! Someone commented on my flickr site that I should smile and not look so stern! I laughed, because I don't think I could smile when I'm concentrating that hard. Thanks for commenting on my site. I love your work! And this is terrific!